Andy Gibb - his sweet voice

He was not just my teen crush, but he's forever my beloved musician, (sorry Leehom.. I guess when it comes to Andy Gibb, you can only land on the 2nd :) My liking was not as intense as compared to Leehom's,  but I have been in love with him since I was only 15 years old. It's been almost 30 years now. wow... phew!

It was a tape at that time. A cassette. He was wearing a red t-shirt and with all that lightening from his fingers, and I swear it's not because of his look, even when I now look at him.. I admit, he's a good-looking guy. He kind of reminds me of Jerry Yan, Mr. DaoMingShi. My friend, Julia, said that it maybe because of his hair. LOL! Anyway.. I grabbed the album because I'm a super huge fans of the Bee Gees since I was 11 years old, I decided to bought that tape. It was not cheap for a teen who lived in a dorm for school.. but I have never regretted the decision a single moment. When later all my tape collection were gone because I carelessly left them on a train ... I bought a new Andy Gibb tape and many Bee Gees tapes.


There was no internet at that time. I didn't know how to get information about him at all. All I have was that tape. Just that one tape. It's his Greatest Hits collection. Don't get confused. It's not an "After Dark" album just like in the picture. I guess at that time many local companies in Indonesia sold tapes of hit songs collection without having to resemble the original.

Andy died in 1988. Sadly I can't remember when it was the first time I heard about his death, and how my reaction at that time. I think only few years after he passed away.. during the early times of internet.. the 90s.

He was good-looking and charming :)
and that dimple was really cute

Maybe his fave color was red

I think, dark suited him best

 





or.. maybe purple?

what about in this fave color of mine?

I don't quite understand fashion at that time, but man.. he's not afraid of yellow pants

He was still looking good in black and white

and even more... in skin color. *blushed*

I told you... his fave color is red. LOL!

And now in the present times.. He would have been 56 if he's still around. Funny that I feel missing someone whom I have never met in my whole life. I am totally a fan of his voice....

I have all his digital albums, I played them on my driving to / from office.. I have listened to many songs he has sung that I have never heard before (thanks to youtube).. and I collected them all too. I read his bio, I browse to find trivia about him ... I spent hours collecting his videos on youtube. And then.. I found this song:



There must be something about this song, about his voice and about his performance in this song that's giving me goosebumps every time I listened to it. And it has been on a repeat for several days already.

It's a combination of sweet and bitter, it's soft but deep, it's sad but beautiful.... His performance is just beyond words, it takes my breath away. It gives me a feeling of sorrow but it's so amazingly beautiful that I don't want to lose that pain...

When I get to think about his life, I feel depressed. How come a person as nice as talented as loved as him ended up with drugs that led him to die in such a young age. He was only 30 years old when he passed away. And when I read all the wishes on youtube, I got even more depressed. All fans were wishing him a peace in heaven. I know ... I should not judge, but I don't think Andy is a born-again Christian. How can he go to heaven and find peace if... he didn't have Jesus as his Saviour...........

Oh Andy.. I wish you were still here so you can get to hear about Jesus and get saved. But I really wanted to thank you ... somehow, my love for your sweet honey voice conveys one thing... I have to tell people I really love, about Jesus. My sisters and their families, my friends, my relatives... and Leehom. I'm sure they have heard about Jesus, but do they believe in Him as their God the Saviour who can save them from eternal doom?

I will pray hard for those people I love so that they receive Jesus in their heart and make their ways to God the Father in heaven.



I dont own any of the photos, they are from google.
credit back to the original owner.

Walking with Jesus

Walking with Jesus 

it's a walk from the darkness into the light.

Things that are unclear, confusing, and sometimes depressing,

will start to really make sense, and become bright.

When you're walking with Jesus...

ask HIM to hold your hands and never let go.

John 8:12

Aku pernah mendengar Pdt Agus Marjanto berkata: "ketika berjalan bersama Yesus, sebaiknya bukan kita yang memegang tangan-Nya. Tapi biarkan Tuhan yang memegang tangan kita"

Lalu beliau menjelaskan kurang lebih spt ini: natur manusia adalah berdosa. Keinginan manusia adalah melakukan dosa. Kalau kita yang memegang tangan Tuhan, hati kita akan berontak karena jalan Tuhan adalah bukan jalan yang kita inginkan. Kita pasti akan melepaskan pegangan tangan kita dan lari dari Tuhan. Tapi, kalau kita rela Tuhan yang memegang tangan kita, kita rela dan taat mengikut kemanapun DIa menuntun kita.. walaupun hati kita kadang berontak ingin melepaskan diri, tapi tangan Tuhan selalu cukup kuat untuk membawa kita kembali ke sisi-Nya.

Seperti apa ya berjalan bersama Tuhan Yesus...
Banyak orang mungkin berpikir, berjalan bersama Tuhan adalah enak, sukses, kaya dan berhasil dalam segala hal. Banyak gereja dan hamba Tuhan yang menyodorkan konsep sukses ini, membuat orang datang pada Tuhan karena ingin sukses, ingin kaya, ingin sembuh. Tidak sepenuhnya salah, karena Allah adalah Maha Kuasa dan sanggup melakukannya. Tapi mengikut Tuhan tidak sesederhana itu. Ikut Tuhan lalu mendadak kaya, mendadak sukses, mendadak sembuh. Itu tipuan. Itu ilusi.Tidak ada satu cerita pun dalam Alkitab tentang hal seperti itu, karena mengikut Tuhan adalah pikul salib. Mat 10:38, Mat 16:24

Apakah itu pikul salib?
Memikul salib adalah kondisi kita mengosongkan diri dan membiarkan kehendak Tuhan saja yang jadi (Kenosis). Kelihatannya gampang.... Benarkah? Benarkah membuang seluruh kehendak diri kita dan hanya membiarkan kehendak Tuhan saja yang jadi itu gampang? Kita menghabiskan waktu berjam-jam untuk nonton film seri, dibandingkan membaca buku rohani apalagi membaca Alkitab. Kita memilih jalan ke mall daripada ke seminar Kristen atau bahkan gereja. Kita berbohong, menipu, berkata kasar dan kotor, malas, ngedumel, complain sana sini... setiap hari. Kenyataannya... setiap hari kita memilih melakukan kehendak setan yaitu melakukan dosa dari pada membiarkan kehendak Tuhan yang jadi. Ef: 5: 1-21

Kehendak Tuhan
Banyak buku bagus tentang petunjuk praktis mengetahui kehendak Tuhan. The Road Best Traveled, karangan Ray Pritchard misalnya. Tapi, kehendak Tuhan bukan hanya tentang menentukan pilihan A atau B, maju atau mundur, kanan atau kiri, atas atau bawah, ini atau itu. Bukan sesimpel itu. Buku "Mengetahui Kehendak Allah" karangan Pdt. Dr. Stephen Tong bisa membantu kita mengerti lebih jauh apa sebenarnya kehendak Tuhan.

Aku percaya setiap orang memiliki panggilan / calling sendiri-sendiri. Apa yang Tuhan kehendaki dari setiap kita berbeda-beda berdasarkan keunikan kita masing-masing. Satu hal yang pasti. Tuhan ingin kita berjalan bersama-nya, selalu disisi-Nya menuju sinar kemuliaan dalam Kerajaan-nya yang kekal.

Sekali lagi tentang berjalan bersama Tuhan, menuju TERANG

Ketika kita mau taat berjalan beriringan dengan Tuhan, mau taat membiarkan Tuhan menuntun tangan kita... Tuhan akan menuntun kita, membawa kita menuju TERANG.

Menurut aku, dalam perjalanan menuju terang ada 3 hal yang akan kita rasakan. Pertama adalah sakit, kedua adalah malu dan ketiga adalah sukacita.

1. Sakit - coba bayangkan kalau sekian lama mata kita berada dalam gelap, lalu tiba-tiba kita melihat sinar terang, apa yang akan terjadi? sakit mata bukan? Setelah sekian lama kita bergaul dengan dosa di dalam kegelapan, kita akan merasa tidak rela untuk membuangnya. Kita tidak ingin melepasnya. Kita tidak ingin meninggalkannya. Terang akan menyakiti kita karena kita tidak rela berpisah dengan dosa.
2. Malu - setelah sadar bahwa kita harus meninggalkan dosa didalam kegelapan dan berjalan menuju terang.. kita akan sadar betapa kotor, najis dan rusaknya kita. Kita akan merasa tidak layak berjalan bersama Tuhan yang begitu suci dan mulia di dalam terang.
3. Sukacita - aku membayangkan Tuhan Yesus memeluk aku yang bau busuk, kotor, najis dan compang-camping karena dosa, lalu memegang tanganku dan menuntunku berjalan sambil berkata lembut: "I love you. come, walk beside Me, stay close to Me all the time, My blood will cleanse you". Jaminan pasti bahwa darah Yesus menyucikan dosa, mengampuni aku dari hukuman mengerikan dan membawa aku ke surga kekal. Adakah hal lain yang melebihi sukacita ini? 

Tuhan tidak menjanjikan kita tidak sakit selama berjalan bersama-Nya. Dan dosa pun akan terus senantiasa mengintip kita dari dalam kegelapan. Dosa menunggu kita kembali kepadanya. Karena kita lemah, dan pada dasarnya kita selalu ingin mencari dosa.. maka biarkan Tuhan saja yang memegang tangan kita sehingga walaupun kita ingin kembali kepada dosa, tangan Tuhan akan terus memimpin langkah kita kembali menuju terang.


Di jalanku ku diiring
Oleh Yesus Tuhanku
Apakah yang kurang lagi jika Dia Panduku
Diberi damai sorgawi asal imanku teguh
Suka duka dipakaiNya untuk kebaikanku 2x

All the way the Savior leads me,
What have I to ask beside
Can I doubt His tender mercy,
Who thro` life has been my Guide
Heav`nly peace, divinest comfort,
Here by faith in Him to dwell
For I know whate`er befall me,
Jesus doeth all things well 2x